Goodbye...

So I'm officially 26. Cheers to another good year ahead.
Time for a new blog so goodbye to this one..
To those that don't know the new blog address...well it could only mean, you're not important for me to give it to you. HA HA...

Happy Happy Birthday Baby..

Happy, happy, birthday baby

Although you're with somebody new
Thought I'd drop a line to say
That I wish this happy day
Would find me beside you.

Happy, happy, birthday baby
No, I can't call you my baby
Seems like years ago we met
On a day I can't forget.

'Cause that's when we fell in love
Do you remember the names we had for each other
You were my pretty, I was your baby
How could we say goodbye?

Hope I didn't spoil your birthday
I know I'm acting kinda crazy
So I'll close this note to you
With good luck and wishes too.

26 things why I dread turning 26!

26 Reasons why I'm dreading turning 26!

1. Everyone around me are either Married, Married with Kids, or getting married.

2. The age category has changed from 20-25 to 26-30.

3. IL be 30 in 4 years time! I as 20, 6 years ago!!

4. Your body really takes a toll on you. At 18, I could head out to clubs at 9pm and come back at 7am only to take a quick shower and head out again for classes.and I actually paid attention in class!! Now, by 2am, my eyes are half closed and my body weighs a ton from dancing. And there's no way I could get up in time to go to work the next day.

5. I don't even go clubbing nowadays. (reasons up ahead - apart from aching body)

6. I have to responsible with money. Although I work and earn MY own money, money which I could do anything with, I now have responsibilities.

7. Parents are older = more nagging and since you're still living under the same roof as them, there's no excuse not to listen to them.

8. You really got to start thinking about your life. Your aims, and goals and START going for it. And you have to be realistic about it. No more childhood games/dreams.

9. All the last teenage music artist are foreign to me. The last teenage pop group that I used to (and still do) listen are the Backstreet Boys, Boyzone, Spicegirls, Take That, All for One, Boys to Men..

10. The artists I used to grow up to (Mickey Mouse Club, Christina Aguilera, Britney Spears, Jessica Alba) are all now married with Kids!!!

11. Shows like 90210 are being re-made to fit the 'Younger' crowd! haha

12. It was 4 years ago since I last studied for an exam. 10 years ago since I took my O's.

13. Ive come to an age where I start reminiscing about the past. And start singing "those were the days my friend..we thought they'll never end"..and you were younger, all you could think of was the future..now I find myself thinking of the past more. sigh..

14. People have started calling me Auntie! and that's not the worst part..I've begun accepting it! *HORROR*

15. During parties, especially CNY, aunties (kaypoh ones) keep asking when you're going to get married. And when you tell them that you're still finding the perfect man, theygive u the "hopeless" look, or the something-must-be-wrong-with-

you look.

16. My grandma keeps telling me (and I tell myself its becoz she's old and she forgot, she has told me this before) "when I was ur age, I was already a mother of 3"

17. I have to start watching my diet. My metabolism rate isn't as high as it was many years ago.

18. I have to start taking proper care of my skin. Use sunblock, moisturizer, blah blah..coz I don't want to look 40 when I'm in my 30s.

19. My bag now seems to have more 'rubbish'. Before all I needed was a simple wallet and my housekeys. Now I have housekeys, car keys, 3 wallets (one for name cards, one for credit cards, and one for cash), tissues, and other random redundant stuff.

20. R21 now means nothing to me (well it never did coz Singapore always censored things even AFTER rating it R21).

21. I'm one chapter away from death. The next chapter in life is marriage and then death. I've already begun my Career chapter.

23. I have started to understand the real importance of life insurance.

24. I have to start dressing my age. Can't dress too kiddish or else people will call me "try hard". hahaha...at least when you're younger, you can dress to be young or old..either way u could probably pass it off.

25. I tend to forget more. I was going to type something in here but I forgot what I wanted to say.

26. Whatever it is, the bottom line is I'm getting old. But life ain't that bad, there are good things from being 26!..haha

You'll Think of Me

"You'll Think Of Me"

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

A CUTE MSG from my BABY...

A cute Thank You msg sent by Baby Ryan (through Caroline of course)..

"thanks for the prezzie auntie Ner
where's my mummy's present
I sent my daddy to work on Monday to get the gift from you
last nite, I tasted all the pieces one by one
but I couldnt fit it into my mouth
but at least I made a lot of noise in my cot with it when my parents were sleeping"
- Baby Ryan Miguel Aliling

my Hot dates...

Sigh, I know its been a while since I last blog. Im slowly going back in that habit of not updating. hahaha...ah well..here's what's been happening.

Was thinking of going back to studying to do my Masters. Was looking at doing a Master of Science in Marketing at the Marketing Institute of Singapore. Talked to the 'rents about it and they're supportive of it but advised me to think about it carefully.
hmmm...so I'm still in the thinking stage.hahahaha..

So alot has been happening this week (after a few weeks of spending quiet time at home). Monday, I drove to work coz we were heading to Shirley's father's wake at West Coast. so knowing that they'l be a few of people coming along, I thought Id contribute my car. hahaha..Then on Tuesday, joined mum and dad at dinner with Aud and Merv. Dinner was rather interesting as I learnt that my aunty Carmen has pretty much left me with the decision of her life, estate and what nots after she dies. PRESSURE man!!! hahahaha

Tonight Im having dinner with the OCBC folks. We're heading to AMK hub.

Tommorow, plans aren't exactly firmed up yet. But Bernard wants me to accompany him to watch Underworld. Argh!! Of all movies...hahahaha

Friday, dinner cum supper (shaun calls it Din-Per and I call it Sup-Ner..hahaha) with the boys. In all the time Bernard has stayed in Tampines, he has not been to Simpang Bedok. Soo we're taking him there.

Sat, I have that talk from NTU about their Nanyang Business school. Then, if time permits rush down to OLPS for novena. Then come back, shower and change for the big BIG date with 4 boys. hahahaha...
Its a priviledge for these boys to be able to take me out I tell you. hahahaha...
Hmm...what should I wear?! Was asking Shaun earlier today and he said that these boys are just kids. hahaha
Anyways..we've concluded that it's either jeans with a normal top, my Victoria Secret tube dress, or jeans with a tube top (IL look like I'm going clubbing. hahaha...then should I wear flats or heels? hahaha...these boys (especially the Darling)...is soo bloody tall. hahahaha...hmm maybe IL just wear tshirt and fbt shorts. hahahaha...

Random Things about Me.

1.I love studying at night. Something about the coolness, calmness and the silence. I would be listening to music and trying to read and do my assignments. And sometimes on short breaks, I would be writing down the lyrics to the songs I love. I would listen and write the lyrics down as the song is being played. And by doing this, I learnt that it improves your English, improves your listening skills (especially taking down lyrics to a rap song) and that most of the lyrics to love songs are predictable.

2.The most I've written in a week was 5 essays each about 5000 words. And on top of that I had a Math quiz. I have never been burnt out like that before but it was sure an experience. The feeling of it being over was euphoric!

3.Studying for exams with Adeline was GREAT! We would bring out our mattress to the living room, turn that place into a big camping ground. We would fill the dinning table with books, test papers, assignments, our snacks, my COKE,her COFFEE, our table lights, laptops, pens, pencils, cups and other what nots. We would study till wee hours in the morning, then head to MacDonalds for breakfast and then do more studying. After that we would go to the library to sleep. hahahaha...I think during exam periods we were only getting about 1hr of sleep for about a week.I seriously think during Uni, I was really lacking of sleep. hahahaha..

4.I am scared of Lizards. REAAALLLY scared of Lizards.Like I would rather die than to be near a lizard. My senses really heightens when a lizard is near. I can see that one tiny thing move 500m away, although my eyesight may not be that perfect. hehehehe...Somehow or another they seem to be attracted to me. I remember back in Bedok Ria, we had a small toilet at the back of the house. I was young then so I remembered going to pee and half closing the door. When washing my hands, I felt something drop on me and in the mirror I saw the tail of the lizard. Immediately I RAMMED into the toilet door, almost ripping it off and screaming for my maid. The Lizard had falled off me but I could still feel it in me!!! I kept jumping up and down and was in tears. After calming me down, my maid found a big cut on my leg which I apparently didn't feel like all. I didn't care what happened to me as long as I was away from the Lizard. BTW this has happened TO DATE about 7 times. Lizards LOOOOOVEEEE me!!! AAAAHH.....

5.I truly love cooking. I remember how we used to cook for about 20+ people almost every weekend back in Sydney. But now that I'm back with mum being my cook, I rarely get a chance to cook unless they decide to go away for a holiday.hahahaha..

6. If I had siblings. I would want to have an elder brother and a younger sister. I always imagined that my older brother would protect me and be someone I could go to. And I would be a big Jie Jie to my yonger sister. Help her with her problems and do fun girly things with her. Oh well, that's never going to happen now is it? hahaha

7. I have to sleep with a bolster or with something to hug. I feel very insecure when I have nothing to hug. BUT it must always be either a bolster or pillow.

8. I used to have this tape collection of oldies. And my maid would play it to wake me up or put me to sleep. Songs on the tape include; "Lipstick on your collar, Golden threads and Silver needles, Dear John, Put your sweet lips, Don't cry Joni...etc." I was only about 5+ then. So yup..I was an oldies kid! hahahaha... The lyrics to these songs are ones I will NEVER forget.

9. I have a thing for butterflies although I'm abit scared of the real thing. hehehe...I'm just amazed at how something soo ugly (caterpillar) turn out to be something soo colourful and beautiful. I'm always amazed at metamorphism. I associate myself with that actually. I love change. Change is good even if its for the better or worst. You always learn something from it. Hence my tattoo of a butterfly. It represents Change.

10.Everyone seems to wonder why on earth I have a degree in Math when I can't even do simple sums. Actually even I can't answer that question. Honestly sometimes I look at my certificate and wonder the same thing.hahaha...but I can tell you why I love Math. I love math not soo much for its numbers but for the skills you get out of it. Like the logic and reasoning way of thinking. There are soo many ways to look at a problem. So its a challenge to find the simplest way to it.

11.When I was young I used to love lying on the floor and looking up at the ceiling imagining what life would be upside down. I could do that for hours. Just pretending that everything was upside down. I could also stare at the ceiling fan for hours imagining life on the blades of the fan.

12. I love horror shows but they always scare the shits out of me. But its the adrenaline pumping feeling that gets me all high. So if you're a fan of horror flicks, please be my friend. hahaha

13. My dream place to visit would be Lapland. Lapland is the Wild North of Finland. You get to see the Aurora Borealis (Northern Lights), reeinders - apparently its a city that still rears reeinders, hahaha...and it experiences really cold winter (-50C at its worst).I love the cold but don't know if I can take it or not. hahahaha...

14.I don't care much for chocolate or ice cream. I eat them but I don't crave for them like some people. If its there, IL eat, if it isn't, then no big deal.

15. I don't really like drinking coffee. I'm a Tea person. But I do love the smell of coffee. I actually even got a certificate in being a coffee connoisseur. You see, in Sydney, they take their coffee making very seriously. So since I was working at this coffee place, they sent me for a 2 day coffee training. You learn how to make the different types of coffee, the different types of beans,and how much milk to water..blah blah blah. My coffeeholic friends were extremely jealous. hahaha..The only coffee I probably drink is a Irish Creme Latte. But again, I'm a Tea person. I drink all sorts of tea. My favourite is the Earl Grey. I can sit at a cafe with a pot of Earl Grey and it'd just ease me troubles away.

16. I am a jeans,tshirt and slippers type of girl.

17. I love my slippers and do wish I could wear them everyday. I own 6 pairs of 'REAL' Havaianas. (pink, brown, silver, black, Australian Flag, white). It was until I went to Bugis that I realised they sold 'fake' Havaianas.

18. I don't care much for makeup. Only after much nagging from my mum, I've started to use the blusher and eyeliner. That's all. I would rather have the extra minutes sleeping..than wasting time using makeup! hahahaha...

In loving Memory...Goodbye January!!!

Wow! January has managed to whizz by without anyone's notice! I can't believe we're actually in the 2nd month of 2009 already. SHIT!
9 years ago, I was facing mama's death on one hand and my independence on the other. Where has the time really gone to? This year marks the 9th year anniversary of the girls. 9 years of the best friendship we all could ever have from going through relationships, to breakups, to pregnancies, to getting into medical school, to exams, to finding that perfect house, to having that first kiss, that first touch, to ermm...everything. hahahaha...my life today wouldn't be same if it wasn't for this bunch of girls. And to them I owe my life.
Although we're all over the world now, I'm sure those memories are carried in our hearts forever. Somehow I find myself asking if I regretted coming back home after those 5 years? I probably did not regret coming home, but it was sure hard to leave my 'home'- a place I built for myself. Hmm...what if I never did leave, how different would I be today? For starters, I don't know if IL still be with Mark. Although we settle for the excuse that it was the long distance that tore us apart, I'm sure there were other underlying issues.
But from that break up, I truly learnt the meaning of a heart ache (the kind where u literally feel as tho someone ripped out ur heart and tore it into a million pieces), truly learning the meaning of 'not knowing what you have till its gone', and learning the meaning of love. I'm sure that there are more things about love to learn but I definately learnt alot from Mark. And I hope he learnt alot from me too.
Sometimes IL find his emails and read them, and although some of them were angry emails, all I can get out from them now is love. How could I have felt so much love without knowing it then? I just knew that he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I still wish for that but it ain't going to happen. Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to feel love the same way I did with Mark and probably that's the truth. I will find love again and it will be different. Mark was Mark and this new guy (who ever he might be) will be the new guy.
Ahh...life! Whoever thought it'd be this hard. hahaha..I wish I could just be young and have carefree days.
I'm just reminiscing and can't believe how fast time flies. So much to learn with soo little time.Wait! back on the topic of love, sometimes I don't understand how people can jump from relationship to relationship. Are they really in love with that person or do they just need attention from the relationship? hmmm I wonder.

Back to life, Back to REALITY

So Chinese New Year has come and gone. Next public holiday would be Good Friday.Geez that's a damn bloody long time more eh?! But considering how fast time flies, it'd be here in no time. And next thing you know..I'm another year older!!! F@$#!@#%sd#$@KKKKK!! (pardon my french!).

I just got back from dinner at U.Erics. Abit quiet today as Eric Jnr was missing in action. I did however meet this really really cute old lady. She's about 80 years old. A typical nonya woman. She was randomly talking to me, coz I think no one was really paying attention to her and I HAPPENED to be next to her. The first funny thing was her asking me for mum and dad's name..

A: what's ur mum's name ah? I forgot.
N: Dinah
A: Oh ya! And what's her husband's name?
N: Hilly
A: Oh Hilly. That's her husband right?
N: Yes. That's her husband.
A: Oh good. And the husband is ur father issit?
N: *speechless* ermm ya! *in my head DUH!, don't we look alike?*

Then she started talking about her maid. How many years she's worked for them, blah blah blah....(I wasn't really paying attention la)..but she suddenly caught my attention when I heard her say SEX.
She was talking to me about SEX?!?! Did she realise how old I was and that it was publicly wrong and embarrassing to talk about it to a stranger (expect for my group of friends lah who would ramdomly just talk about sex or anything but with innuendo pun to it!).She started talking about birth control la, how to be safe, what not to do...etc. I was laughing in my head. *ner's head: Come auntie, let me teach u a thing or two in this day of the world- hahahahaha* But I graciously nodded, pretending that I had no clue what she was talking about, acting innocent (ermm I mean I AM INNOCENT) and that I was indeed learning something. hahaha.
I must say, it was rather an eventful night. hahahaha

I must say that my relationship with Lil J has become rather interesting. You would think that after having at least a long stable relationship, one would more or less be able to read a boy's mind (especially one who's much younger than u). hahaha..but nooo its actually still very HARD. hahaha..but it is actually very stimulating and very challenging. Shaun said that its been a while since I was this happy with my new friend. hahahaha...(stop laughing Lil J..it is a compliment to you but don't get too swelled up). So why is it rather interesting? Well its been a while but yet this has somewhat managed to pull a little string in my heart and its a nice feeling. One can fantasize for a little while.hahaha.. I call this my little holiday affair. hahahaha..Till school starts and there goes my baby...I will get back to reality. =)
So for now, bear with my nonsense. =P
Okay, I admit defeat (I shall be the bigger person), IF you were older, I MIGHT go after you. I mean, who wouldn't right? If you find someone who laughs with you, shares the same thoughts with u (altho scary at times), and is of a good fit, would you be insane to let it go? But that would be another story...
ANYWAYS...that would be part of my fantasy. hahahaha...

Some Random Facts

hmmmm...a proper rebuttal is what he wants. In truth I really can't think of a rebuttal.
So he misses me, the truth is out and I can't deny that..hahahaha..

okay..so since I can't think of a rebuttal, I've decided to try something different.
Here are some random stuff about him that I remember from the Israel trip or from getting to know him better.

1. He was always warm. Not only him, but Josh too. I remembered during the 'Our Father'during our daily masses when we held hands, his hands were always very warm. It was nice! =)
2. He doesn't snore..hahahaha.but wait! I'm also asleep when he is...so I don't really know. But I don't remember hearing him snore.Soo...I conclude, that he doesn't. hahahaha..
3. He's a real gentleman. Very caring and wonderful person inside and out.Something far beyond his 16 years of age.
4. He likes the colour blue. (something I noticed, coz most of his clothes were blue. hahahaha...)
5. He's damn bloody TALL.
6. He's a capricon.
7. He was born in the year of a Monkey.
8. He has a brother name Joshua.
9. He's an Altar Boy.
10. He wears glasses with very little degree..which I think without it, he'd be blind. hahahaha
11. He can make me laugh without knowing it coz sometimes I seriously think we have identical minds.

There are probably alot more things I know about him but I wouldn't risk saying it all out. hahahaha.. But doing this also proves my point that girls are more emotional than men and that men can NEVER say out their feelings..=)

You wait and see...

Hahahaha...for now I have nothing to say.

It was indeed a surprising rebuttal. So news it out, he FINALLY did admit that he misses me. hahahaha..I know, I know! Im a sucker to such appraisals. =P

Its 2am now and not like my brain or mind ever work, but let me sleep on this and think up of a response/rebuttal as we like to call it. But oh! before I end this..I would like to say...I like how he always has to rest assure 'others' that he's not talking about his girlfriend. hahaha...its classic!!!

Went for my first bible study (shutup to all those who gasp...I can HEAR you). YES, indeed it was a first for me. I'm even surprised to see me drag my feet there to church. It was like someone was pulling me there..(ahh...the Holy Spirit has finally decided to grace me). I must say it was rather interesting tho at times it was abit cliche. But time not wasted, I did enjoy myself and probably did managed to learn a thing or two.

After that, we (Ah Sook, A.Ade, Mum, Dad, Justin L, Shaun and a few others) decided to go down to the near by coffee shop for dinner and drinks. To get there...I sat on Ah Sook's lorry. Get this! I sat at the back of a LORRY!!! How FASCINATING was that..hahaha
okokok I know alot of people are saying "u mean it was your first time?". So YES, I admit, I was a lorry-virgin before tonight. It was a fun journey albeit the short ride. I had fun. There were moments I felt as though I was going to be flung out of the truck. hahahaha..What a night..

So now, its time for me to say Goodnight!

My Reply

You know how on facebook you reply to people's msges on their account? Well, I'm replying to an entry that someone wrote about me on his blog...hahahaha.

So at first THIS person was abit reluctant to write up the entry. Saying that 'others' would comment that I'm his new gf or something along those lines..but in the end he wrote up a short and sweet entry regardless of what people thought..or maybe he did want people to know of his special friend. hahahahaha...(he would now say..in his words.."THICCCKKK SKINNNED")..=)

So before I make any comments I would first like to say, I am honoured and a huge thanks for that entry. Although it sounded somewhat similar to something I read somewhere (mmm..wonder where), it was rather sweet. There were moments where I would smile at the sudden trigger of memory.
So as the journey of this friendship grows..I will have more things to write.And till the day he finally admits that he misses me...I will never know..=P (I'm not blackmailing you to say it K)

I'm left with 1 more week till he finally begins school and the next chapter with his life. By then, business would have picked up and I'l be swarmed with work. So 1 more week of playful times and teenage giggles and soon it'd all be over. So yes..iL say it again, I will miss you when you're gone but it'd finally be time for me to kick my ass and work! hahaha...It was fun chatting with you and I will definately be bored without ur 'debates and rebuttals'.hahaha..
WAH! this sounds like as if you're going far far away when in truth u're just a couple of blocks away from me. hahahaha...but once school start, you'll be sucked in with JC life, meet new friends, friends of your age (thankfully! and not some old hag hahahaha.. - yes a decade is 10years not 12!!!)..hahaha

okay its time for my meeting...so have fun and iL be back!!!

More than Friendship than meets the Eye...

So Israel trip was great. I learnt alot about the Lord and I really felt something. Hard to describe but I really felt a presence that has made me want to be closer to my faith. HOLY NER...hahahaha.

So although the trip was 80% old people, there was a group of us termed "young ones" - thanks to Angela, our tour leader- hehehe. It mainly consisted of Me (the oldest and the mastermind of most of the jumping shots), Justin and his brother Josh.
We occupied the back of the bus and nope, we didn't make alot of noise, we slept alot! hahaha..We kept bugging our driver, Noor, to drive us to the nearest KFC for a change of meal. We were getting so sick of the Israeli cold COLD food. hahaha..But as expected, he didn't understand a word we said, and I bet neither did Josh. hahahaha..

Anyways...remaining close as we were, after a long and tiring plane ride (coz those 2 brothers refused to let me sleep, Justin kept poking me whenever I would close my eyes) we bid our goodbyes. They were stopping over at Istabul for a night before returning home to Singapore. Although stubbornly I said I wouldn't miss them, I did. The journey back to Singapore was boring and quiet, but I DID finally managed to get some sleep.hahaha...
I was dead tired, hungry and feeling very dirty when we got back to Singapore. Glad to be home though. =) Friday night went by fast,and I was awaken on Sat morning by the 2 rascals pronouncing their arrival. Amazingly from then on, I got pretty close to Justin(probably becoz he was the freest among all. Josh had school). Chatted with him regularly and meeting up regularly coz he was helping out to do the photo slides which he did with perfection. He was also my saviour from boredom at work. hahaha...Sometimes I laugh and smile to myself at the msgs that he sends and Rayson would think I'm crazy...he'd come over and disturb me saying that I should go home and take my medicine. hahaha..
'Lil Justin' as some friends call him (so as not to get mixed up with Justin Liang).hahaha...Its weird that although he's soo much younger than me (bloody hell!!!)..We click perfectly well..hahaha weird eh?!Its sometimes really scary where we would be thinking off the same thing and he would finish up my sentences. Can you imagine? I actually found someone that does that but he's soo much younger than me?! Bloody hell!!!!Hahahaha...
He's a nice, decent and well mannered boy. Im proud that he did well on his O's and hopefully goes to the right school for his own sake. You never know the people we meet in this day and time (WOW! I sounded like a big Jie Jie). So Justin, if you're reading this..remember this:
You have along way to go before you finish school. This is usually the best time in one's life, the other is when you get married and become a father ( so I hear!)..so enjoy and learn from every experiences that you get, be it good or bad. A lesson someone older taught me: Whatever you do in life, remember to never regret it. So make the right choices which I'm sure you will and enjoy Life!

okok enough of being a big Jie Jie.hahahaha.. So yah..here's the story of how Lil Justin has become such a big part of my life...and Oh yah..*shhh he told me to add this in*..
he won this battle that we had between us. See right, we usually can finish up each other sentences or type in the exact thing we were thinking of. So earlier today, he was telling me something that a priest once told him..that ..the girl will chase him and not he chase the girl coz he's sooo charming. =)
so I asked where's the line of girls that follows this Mr charming?? ahahaha. His reply was that..the line was along East coast till West coast..but none caught his eye..and oh yah, I was in the line too but I didn't catch his eye.Then I rebute saying..but if I was in his line..then why did he come up to my place yesterday to see me? hahahaha...for a minute, he had nothing to say. hahaha..My rebuttal was too good for him, coz it was a fact that he came up to see me. hahaha..Then I reminded him that its difficult to come up with a rebuttal when we both think soo alike. hahaha..then..suddenly by some power, he came up with a rebuttal and said..he said that he came up to tell me that I had no chance to be his GF even if I had Q'd. Then I lent him the book as an apology for not queuing up coz I never showed him face. hahahaha...
SEE LAH!! what I have to go through..hahaha
But he's a really nice kid (opps..dude) and I really really like him. =)

My 2009 Promise!

Indeed time passes by so quickly, no one's going to deny that.It is what we make out of the little time that we have that matters the most.

Its Jan 21st, the month is almost up. Chinese New Year is round the corner and yet the mood doesn't feel right. I was never that fond of CNY apart from receiving the ang baos but I guess maybe people are slowly feeling the reality of the recession.
2009 is going to be a bad year, I can feel it. With recession and unemployment on the rise, what are we to expect? Hmm..maybe I shalln't be so grim about it. Look on the brighter side of things, I have a job that I love and I'm surrounded by people that matters.
So I take it back! 2009 IS going to be a GREAT year! I'll work hard, maybe go back to studying and complete my masters, but most importantly have fun! Life is too short.
Meeting up with 'Happy-Girl' and 'Not so Happy-Boy'..hahaha luckily I don't think Kavan has access to my blog. Heading down to Timbre at substation for drinks and dinner.
Its been ages since I last saw Nad, but the greatest thing about us, is that no matter how long we haven't seen each other, when we meet, its like we just saw each other. Weird huh? She's probably the only one that kept in contact with me ever since I left for Sydney. Thanks babe..I love you for that.
This year, I'm also going to keep in close contact with my friends in Sydney. Its sad that we're all in different parts of the world now, but that doesn't and shouldn't mean anything. We've gone throught alot together and we can definately deal with this. My 2009 promise to you girls, I will be more than a friend to you, I promise always be here when you need me and I will definately keep in touch more often. I love you girls. MUACKS!

2009!

2009 is already here!!! Can you imagine that?! Time just passes by too quickly. Some say time passes by quickly when you're having fun but I can't say that I truly am. But that's just another story for another day yah?!

So its the beginning of another year and what have I done? I wouldn't really condemn 2008 as to be a REALLY bad year but would just say it was a journey filled with different experiences.

Things that happened in 2008:
I went to Japan for the first time.
I left APC to join OCBC only to re join APC again.
I sort of learnt what I want in my life in the career sense.
I turned 25.
I attended 8 weddings.
One of the girls got married and it was such a beautiful thing. (this alone has to be another entry).
I did a pilgramage. I went to the Holy Land.
I definately made alot of new friends.

Things I want in 2009:
I want to love again.
I want to make more money.
I want my career to grow.
I want to be happy.
I want to finally make that trip back to Sydney.
I want to go to Canada for Xmas.

Another year for yet another experience.

Always and Forever

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.
Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

I'll always have you

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

Closing that part of my life.

Its not like I don't miss you or stopped missing you. I still think of you every single day but I have to learn to move on and close that chapter of my life. Sure we did have fun and shared some memories that I will always hold close to my heart. But to hope for something that I know will probably not be there is unhealthy. Don't you think so?

It's our time to grow and set our wings free. You've taught me so much and yet there's so much more for me to learn. Maybe someday we could be friends. Closer friends than what we are today. For now I can't be that person you want me to be coz it just hurts too much to think about it.

I wish you all the best and maybe some where down the road, you and I will both meet that 'special' person. Someone that will make us feel loved again. Someone who will bring in the sunshine. I love you.

Someone Special

Im someone special
Im just in disguise
I may not be perfect
In everyones eyes
It may not be tomorrow
But I still believe
Theres someone special
Waiting out there for me

Hey hey...im soo bad at keeping up with this Blog stuff. Especially with now Facebook and all. Ah well, here are the pics taken with the family whilst Myla and Darrell were down.

Now the whole Cordeiros are down in Sunny Singapore for Lyle's baby girl -Leah Andrea Cordeiro- baptism. So I hope I can put those pics up when that happens.

'Till then...Enjoy!