kiss because i'm a girl

the CAT EMPIRE!!

It continues to ring in my ear.

"Our weapons were our instrumentsmade from timber and steelwe never yielded to conformitybut stood like kingsin a chariot that's riding on a record wheel..."

What am I going on about? Well...its THE CAT EMPIRE! (I can hear Ade's screaming in the background - hehehe). Met up with Ryan, Will, Felix, Jamshid, and Harry (wah, sounds like I know them personally huh? hehehe..) last Friday as they came to Singapore to perform. Know how much I had to pay to get to see these people up close....are u ready for this?....drum roll.....$0!!Yes..INDEED, I paid nothing to watch the Cat Empire, and its not because someone bought me the tickets, or I won the tickets but its because they performed here live for FREE. Ahuh, yup, you heard me right, they performed here at the Esplanade last Fri, Sat and Sun for free. Anways, Mark and I went down to catch them with very little expectation. (* honestly before the concert, I only knew 'helo helo' *) hehehe...The show went on for about 2hrs with breaks in between. Had a really good time. Such a great time that I went back there on Sunday with my folks to catch them again. hehehehe...Pics will be up soon I promise.

Eeeeekksss....sorry for the long delay in updating my blog.Alot has and has not been happening (if that made any sense). For starters, I'm currently under the weather with a bad bad BAD cough. It started off with just a throat infection,then gradually turned into a whooping cough...ANNOYING!!

I finally got the chance to watch 'Sepet'.The show won the best movie award at the Malaysian film festival. Its a love story between a malay girl and a chinese boy. It was an interesting movie. Funny at parts, sad at some but mostly very romantic. The end freaked me out a little. Let me try to summarise the story. This chinese boy who's mother is a baba (Peranakan women - chinese with malay influence) falls in love with a malay girl. He is a romantic who likes to write poems of love. However in the journey of finding the 'one' he falls at the hands of some wrong doings, making the sister of his greatest enemy pregnant. Ah Loong/Jason (his name) writes a letter to Orked (the girl's name) telling her that she's the one he's been waiting for all his life. However while waiting he did bad things which he has to take care of first before being with her eternally. Orked gets very angry and feels cheated and refuse to see Jason or talk to him. This goes on for quite a while. Orked dates other people while Jason keeps proclaiming his love for her through letters. After a few months,Orked gets a scholarship to study in Europe. On the day she was leaving, Jason rides frantically to see her off at the airport. In her car, Orked's mum begs her to read Jason's letters and to give him a last call. However, while making his way to the airport, Jason got into an accident and died. There was a scene with him lying on the ground dead with his phone next to him ringing, but in the next scene, Jason answers Orked's call, saying that he knows that she loves him. It was Jason's spirit that answered her called!!! how eerie is that?!?! I know its supposed to be romantic and all but I got freaked out!! Imagine how freaked out she'll be when she finds out that she spoke to Jason after he died. hehehe...
Anyway it was a good movie. Catch it sometime if and when u do get a chance.

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On the topic of stories. Last weekend at A.Pat's birthday party. The cousins got together to tell ghost stories (a common thing with the cousins at parties - usually done on the staircases). At what other ghost stories to tell but the ones from Tekong (an island used for military training). I shall share this one with you. Thursdays are known as black thursdays in Tekong. There are no night duties, no night trainingsm basically everyone is made to go back to their bunks after a certain time. This is story behind it. A guy from a platoon fell sick and decided to take leave. He went to see the doctors which told him that he was alright to return to camp. So he returned back to camp and joined the marching platoon.But as he joined the platoon, one other guy went on a toilet break. So when they did the headcount, they miscalculated and left the other guy (in the toilet) behind. Only later when they did a name attendance, they realised that the toilet guy was missing. A search was made to find him. After 3 days, they finally found the guy behind the camp, with all of his body parts taken out and stacked properly ready for inspection.Gross huh? so now every thursday, he roams the place with certain of his body parts missing. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe.........

 

I'm off to the land of SHOPPING.. Bangkok here I come.
Woohoo.....

My Little Surprise birthday party.

SURPRISE NER!!!

Plenty of thanks to my fellow mates and my significant other.These guys threw me a mini early birthday party over at Hard Rock last Thursday. I had no idea what was going on. All I thought was that I was heading out to dinner with Mark. Hmmm...if only I knew what that cheeky devil was up too. =P
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After work, I went with the girls to the Victoria Secret sale.It wasn't that great, so we decided to leave early. On our way to the bus stop, Shirley and I stopped at Fullerton to get a cake each. Fullerton was having a promotion, they were selling their cakes at $10. It was a double chocolate cake. After buying it, we (Kim, Kanlaya, Czar + me) headed down to Kallang to get the car. This was what I understood was happening. Kanlaya was meeting a friend down at Orchard for dinner, and Kim was accompanying her and Czarina was gonna meet her house mates. I parked the car at Shaw Center and rushed to meet Mark. (He kept calling me asking where I was as we were late for our reservation). Ran to Hard Rock only to find Van and Kavan sitting there. I was soo shocked!! Mark...you had me good this time. You would have got me better if u didn't blurt out that the 3 girls were coming along as well.hehehe...but it was all good anyways. Thank you guys for that lovely surprise. Boy don't Hard Rock know how to treat their birthday guest. It was excellent. I had balloons, a polaroid taken and a birthday song sung to me. hehehehe...Pics will be up soon. I promise!

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,Our hands would not be taught to hold another's, When we were the special two. And we could only see each other, we'd bleed together, These arms will not be taught to need another, 'Cause we were the special two.

When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it. Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it. When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go Cos you know and you know that you know.

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When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it. Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it. When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go Cos you know and you know that you know.

And so it is. Life goes on. I suddenly realise that this page has become my photo-stashing outlet..My excuse to exhibit my very 'non-artistic' work. Sigh. Anyhow, anywho and ANYWAYS..this week has been jammed pack with all sorts of activities. Mum complained last night that I'm never home for dinner lately. Well the big news of this season: we're moving office. Here's an update of what happened this week.

MON: Work was as usual. Was making good progress with my calls. Attended the second part of the online Siebel training. After work, the gang made our way to catch 'Date Movie'. For those out there who loved that movie, well don't read on coz I'm going to pay out that movie badly. I knew before watching the movie, that the show was going to be a stupid one. The jokes were lame and soo predictable. I guess its ones of those movies that are brainless (not my kind of movies).

TUES: Had training with Jeffrey So for Siebel again. This system is supposedly going to be faster and much more user friendly. After work, went home to 2 little brats that decided to spend a night over. Went to bed by 10pm but didn't sleep well, as 'baby/princess' was kicking, rolling and slaping me. ARGH!

WED: Started packing a little at work. Room started being more and more cluttered. Walking around became an issue. Every now and then, you'll hear 'ouch', 'omph', 'aaahh'. After work, the gang went over to Clarke Quay to meet up with Chai. Had dinner at the Indonesian restaurant. Food wasn't that bad nor was it that good but I guess the company was more important. Walked around the newly renovated clarke quay. It looks alot better now. Looks very mordern.

THURS: Once again at work, we started to pack more. More oohhss and aahhhsss..

I finally got myself a new 'good' camera. No more for those cheap cheap / free gimicks. I got myself the new Canon Ixus 60. Got it at a good steal at the IT show last friday. Pictures from this baby will be up soon I promise.

My new watch..hehehe. So happy with it. Wanted it for quite some time now.

WARNING!!! Pictures..pictures pictures!!! This is what I managed to do so far. There are still heaps more pics left to upload.. So be patient k! We took about 1000 pics that weekend man.=)

"Its just Another Day"

Just another day at work. Its pretty quiet as 3 mates went off for training. So once again I shifted my ass to an empty slot in the office. The reason why I'm a nomad is because we're in the midst of moving office and till we move I am without a proper seat. I requested for a seat with a view that overlooks the city. =)OOh update!! I've been PROMOTED! Yes lil nerdy ner has moved up the corporation ladder. I am now a presales + technical support engineer for ASEAN. The title is quite self explanatory actually but for those who aren't that bright..(hehehe..no offense) I basically help out with the technical support department and do presales for the company - APC. Okay enough about work (I get 9hrs of it everyday!)...just the other day I went for a drive at changi village - very close to the airport. I was watching the planes take off and land. It then hit me that I will not be going away for a long period of time any time soon. Its quite sad. Memories started pouring in and tears started to well up in my eyes. I thought about the first time I left Singapore for Sydney. The mix feeling of excitement, fear, lonliness and clueless expectations that I got was undescribable. I would give anything just to get that feeling back. Those years I spent in Sydney were truly the best times in my life.I learnt so much in that time. More about life, friendship and love.I guess when you're actually in that period of time in your life, you sometimes fail to see what's in front of you. You only get to see the real meaning of it when you're out of it. Well, its been almost 8months now that I've left Sydney, and I'm still missing every bit of it. But with that being said, I'm also learning to appreaciate what I have right now. I'm loving work, my new found friends and loving Singapore again. I know things would never be the same again but that's the reality of life.

Morning Madness

After having very very little slp over the past few days, I dragged myself out of bed this morning. Oh how I wished I could just sleep in and didn't have to go to work. Neways..I got ready and left my place slightly after my usual time. I was pretty constantly daydreaming the whole time. Then the 196e came, and I thought to myself, "Oh this would get me to work faster since its an express". So I got on the bus, slpt the whole way through, waking up only to find out that the bus does not stop at my bus stop!!! The bus went all the way to Raffles. So I didn't end up being late for work but even later!!! So I slowly made my way through Marina, Suntec and finally to work..sigh..what a morning.

I have suddenly lost my thoughts on life. The feeling is numb. Why is this so, I do not know. Has life suddenly taken alot out of me, and left me feelingless? Once again I do not know.

I just heard the news today that you have decided to take your leave. Without goodbye you left us. Left us with only fond memories of you. Things will never be the same without you, parties will lose its essence, laughter would echo in the emptiness only to return dead.I guess I should be happy, as you left without a throe. Through with pain, through with suffering, you are now at rest. I can only pray in silent and bring comfort to them. As time on earth is precious, you have taught me to enjoy. Be thankful for what I have and give with all that I can. Goodbye now dear love and till we meet again. I'll be thinking of you in all my prayers and pray you do the same.

"In time, the heart heals

leaving us with memories -

not of our sorrow

but of the love

we have known

In the quiet moments

when the hurt is hard to bear,

May love become your

shelter, & may the beauty of

precious memories be your comfort"

Crazy in love

Ain’t funny how time
Steals the feeling from a love affair
And there’s no place to lay the blame
'Cause in any case, oh, no one cares
Helplessly we just watched it fade away
Neither will admit it
Are we both aching to say.

We, you, I miss the days when we were crazy in love
When you were so sure of me, I had my little jealousy.
We, you, bring back the days when we were crazy in love
I wanna feel that way again
Remember when we were crazy in love.

I know it used to be so easy
One touch and I was high
And I could get intoxicated
Just by looking in your eyes
Oh, baby ain’t there anything we can do
'Cause I know you’re missing me
As much as I’ve been missing you.

We, you, I miss the days when we were crazy in love
When you were so sure of me, I had my little jealousy.
We, you, bring back the days when we were crazy in love
I wanna feel that way again
Remember when we were crazy in love.
Girl, we were more than best of friends
We were crazy in love...

The time is near. Its time for us to say goodbye. I'm sorry to say goodbye but in a way I think its for the best. I hate seeing you in such pain and misery. People around you all feel so useless. I want to help. I want to make things better. I wish I could take away everything!

Its sad to see someone once so full of life, be stripped off everything: hope, love, laughter, EVERYTHING!

Anything

I'll do anything you want

do anything you ask

to try to make things easier

you're wish is my command

I'll do anything you want

whatever you desire

and I know it may seem odd

but if you ask me why

I'll tell you why

no particular reason

hey'cause I just felt like doin'

somethin' nice for you today

Still..

Usually when two people are together
For a long time things seem to change
It’s been said that nothing good lasts forever
But this love is better every day
We get all excited inside, every time that we get along
He still got love in his eyes, and I still got love in my soul

Still, feels like the first time we met that
I kissed and I told you I love you
We still run around like teenagers
Even though we are grown and marry with kids
We still, talk on the phone for hours when I’m away,
He still writes letters and sends me flowers every other day,
the question everybody asks, is how we make it last,
I tell them I still, he still, we still

Now I still smile in the morning, when I realize I’m still in his arms
We know everything about each other,
but we still keep holding on yeah
We never gonna break up, we be always there to make up
as long as we stick together we climb higher
I’m gonna ride with him to the wire,
our love is never gonna end, we’re on fire

Still, feels like the first time we met that
I kissed and I told you I love you
We still run around like teenagers
Even though we are grown and marry with kids
We still, talk on the phone for hours when I’m away,
He still writes letters and sends me flowers every other day,
the question everybody asks, is how we make it last,
I tell them I still, he still, we still

We go through problems just like everybody else,
but I really don’t mind, ´cause it makes us keep it fresh,
now its sadder than an argument,
is the thought we may have never been
He is my lover, my baby’s father, my lifetime partner and my friend '

Still the man of my dreams, and still the man for me,
and I’m still in love with him, so deeply,
I think I’ll sing it again,
Still the man of my dreams, and still the man for me,
and I’m still in love with him, deep deeply

Still, feels like the first time we met that
I kissed and I told you I love you
We still run around like teenagers
Even though we are grown and marry with kids
We still, talk on the phone for hours when I’m away,
He still writes letters and sends me flowers every other day,
the question everybody asks, is how we make it last,
I tell them I still, he still, we still

Rain rain go away..
Come again another day..
Little Ner wants to play..
Rain rain go away..

Its raining, its pouring,
the old man is snoring.
He jumped into bed and bumped his hed
and couldn't get up in the morning.

Just the way you are...

Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore I

wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this farI
took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care
I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk toI
want you just the way you are.
I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew

What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.
I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.

Hmm...so its the new year and there should be a new me right?! So to begin 2006, I should buy myself a new toy shouldn't I? This is a phone, a pocket pc with microsoft mobile 5.0, wi-fi, 2.0megapixel camera and so many more..aaaggghhh!!! I want one!!!

Happy New Year to ALL!!
Can you believe it,its 2006?! Where has time disappeared to? I feel as though time has moved along and left me behind. =(Anyways..this is that time of the year when we make resolutions for the year and in that year we TRY to keep to it.Well this year Im going to be slightly different (kinda got this idea from One Tree Hill). Instead of making resolutions I'm going to write down what I want to do and wish to do this year. hmmm...kinda sound like resolutions right? Aaah..nvm.

So this year's resolution.
1. Try to enjoy Life. Don't get too caught up in something that might take away the joy of the simpliest things.
2. Save money.
3. Visit these countries : Canada, Australia - Sydney of course! but I wanna go other places as well.
4. Be a better daughter.
5. Appreciate my friends more.
6. Be a teacher.

Hmm...that's what I can think of for now. Will let you know if there's any update in it.

Xmas Day @ my Place!!!

APC Xmas Party @ BQ Bar

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE n 2 ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

so this is christmas...and I swear this year is not a good year end!! Well, for me at least..There is nothing much to look forward to after xmas. Usually after the celebrations, it's time to pack and get ready to go back to Sydney. BUT now after xmas, its back to the same life only its a new year..

Anyways..Merry Christmas to all.Enjoy your holidays.

This time, This place Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

'Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you I have loved you all along And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance

'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up '

Cause you know, you know, you know

That I love you I have loved you all along

And I miss you Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go

Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away (So far away)

Been far away for far too long

So far away (So far away)

Been far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know

I wanted I wanted you to stay

'Cause I needed I need to hear you say

I love you I have loved you all along

And I forgive you For being away for far too long

So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you any more

Believing

Hold on to me and never let me go

Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more

Believing

Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing

Hold on to me and never let me go Keep breathing

Hold on to me and never let me go

TAG TAG TAG

5 Random Facts About Me

1. for the past few days I have been slping past 4am and waking up at 9am

2. i have been so stressed out lately that I have forgotten what stressed me out in the first place.

3. i love dimples..

4. i need to slp with a bolster...can't do without it.

5. with the lack of slp I really can't think of anything random. except that I have just dyed my hair dark brown..now isn't that random?!?!

Next up

When you look at yourself in the mirror, what is the first thing you look at?
ooh I DO have a dimple../ ooh my eyebrows have grown, need to pluck

How much cash do you have on you today?
amazingly 50 since last night..oh that's right, my cousin paid for everything..hehehehe

What's a word that rhymes with 'test'?
fest..is that even a word?

Favourite plant?
god knows y but the first thing that came to my mind was a bonsai..I don't even like plants. Hate it coz of all the funny little weird creatures you find in soils..ewwww

Who is the fourth person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
home...mum trying to find out what time I was coming home

What is the main ringtone on your cell phone?
some pre-programed tune in the phone named vacation

What shirt are you wearing?
my KC PE tshirt

Do you label yourself?
yes a lazy, bottomless pig...heh

Brand of the shoes you are currently wearing.
no shoes, but my havianas slippers..

Bright or dark room?
depends on my mood, but usualy dark

What were you doing at midnight last night?
either dancing on the dance floors of Double O or drinking a shot with Van

What was the last text message you received on your cell phone?
goodnight mamapoo.. (I'll spare you guys the lovy dovy stuff)

Do you ever click on 'Pop Ups' or banners?
no

What's a saying that you say a lot?
yea (with the aussie twang) / becoz of mags, I've begun saying 'sweet' alot

Who told you they love you last?
dad

Last furry thing you touched?
you wouldn't want to know...hehehe

How many drugs have you done in the past three days?
hmm..

How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
who uses rolls nowadays...keep up with the technology people

Favourite age you have been so far?
current age i must say

Your worst enemy?
myself...my lazy self

What is your current desktop picture?
a grad pic of the family

What was the last thing you said to someone?
must I go? i want to slp in.. (mum wants me to go marketing with her in the wee hours of the morning)

If you have to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
a really good question..right now I'll just say a million

Do you like someone?
yes

The last song you listened to?
I wanna be with you - Mandy Moore

People I hope to see do this quiz?
Edwin
Mark
Vanda
Coral
Vanessa
TAG. YOU'RE IT.

lost...

I have been so out of it lately..reason being is that I am starting a new job come monday. No more working from home. This little ladee now has a proper office down town in a little cubicle with a view of Bugis. I 'll be working as a presales coordinator..(when I do get more info about what I'm supposed to do I'll update you guys). The reason of changing jobs is because with this new job, im getting almost double the pay..So its pretty good and also this company is an American company with offices all around the world..so I'm hoping that in due time I could relocate to thier office in North Sydney..*fingers cross*

(time to bitch)...okay ever since I've been back, one persistant question keeps being asked by almost everyone I meet. "Why did you come back? Don't you like Sydney?"...Well being the diplomatic me and the filial daughter, I had to say.."oh coz I think now is the time to look after my parents, so I decided to come back and work here, to be closer to them". At first, I even got myself to believe that that was true. but now..not so anymore. I never expected me to work in Sydney or Australia for that matter. I did want to come back home and work and maybe move to Canada for a while. But after much thought and reflections I realised that Australia is my home too. The other day I met up with Caroline(Mark's sis -she was here for a week) and started talking to her. I told her that my trip back to Sydney this time around made me realise alot of things. Firstly, I realise that Sydney can NEVER be a place of holiday for me. I think I've built a life there to treat it as a holiday country. I know that place TOO much and TOO well. Sydney was my home during the time that I was writing my university chapter so much so it has become part of me, part of my life. The other thing that I realise is that my life (my friends) are all in Sydney. I can never NEVER find friends like those there. We have shared so much through all these years that we've become more of a family than friends. I've realised the differences between good friends and friends that become your sisters. I do have good friends here in Singapore, they are the ones that you spend time with in the weekends for a catch up over coffee or to go shopping with, basically just for social activities. But those in Sydney are the ones that you can depend your life on. They are the ones that would drop everything just at your call..I love them to bits and I can't imagine life with out them.

So back to what I was saying..now after much thought about where I want to be. I began to wonder why did I come back here? The reason I ran away was to get away from the folks. I needed to break away and live. Then coming back here I thought, things would have changed. They would have realised that I'm all grown up now with a better control of my life..but boy was I wrong!! They're still treating me like a 12yr old. So god help me please, let my parents relax. I feel so trapped here...ARGH! I do get my freedom but at the same time I'm still trapped in alot of ways.

NEways..its been such a long week. I need a break. So to keep me going, I tell myself that one day all this would be worth it..

"Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch ur heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just becuase it was with them. They're the people you canshare your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life."

Thank you for being my friend,

Thank you for being my best friend,

Thank you for being the one to care,

Thank you for loving me as I am,

Thank you for being my confidant,

Thank you for being my partner in crime,

Thank you for lending me a shoulder to cry on,

Thank you for just being there,

Thank you for supporting me,

Thank you for believing in me,

Thank you for being part of my life,

Thank you for all your laughter,

Thank you for the happiness you've given to me,

Thank you for letting me love you,

Thank you for tolerating my nonsense,

Thank you for understanding me,

Thank you for sharing your time with me,

Thank you for being someone I could trust,

Thank you for sharing all my secrets,

Thank you for keeping my secrets,

Thank you for just being you.

Thank you for EVERYTHING. Without you, I won't be where I am today and be the person I am. I love you.