Goodbye...

So I'm officially 26. Cheers to another good year ahead.
Time for a new blog so goodbye to this one..
To those that don't know the new blog address...well it could only mean, you're not important for me to give it to you. HA HA...

Happy Happy Birthday Baby..

Happy, happy, birthday baby

Although you're with somebody new
Thought I'd drop a line to say
That I wish this happy day
Would find me beside you.

Happy, happy, birthday baby
No, I can't call you my baby
Seems like years ago we met
On a day I can't forget.

'Cause that's when we fell in love
Do you remember the names we had for each other
You were my pretty, I was your baby
How could we say goodbye?

Hope I didn't spoil your birthday
I know I'm acting kinda crazy
So I'll close this note to you
With good luck and wishes too.

26 things why I dread turning 26!

26 Reasons why I'm dreading turning 26!

1. Everyone around me are either Married, Married with Kids, or getting married.

2. The age category has changed from 20-25 to 26-30.

3. IL be 30 in 4 years time! I as 20, 6 years ago!!

4. Your body really takes a toll on you. At 18, I could head out to clubs at 9pm and come back at 7am only to take a quick shower and head out again for classes.and I actually paid attention in class!! Now, by 2am, my eyes are half closed and my body weighs a ton from dancing. And there's no way I could get up in time to go to work the next day.

5. I don't even go clubbing nowadays. (reasons up ahead - apart from aching body)

6. I have to responsible with money. Although I work and earn MY own money, money which I could do anything with, I now have responsibilities.

7. Parents are older = more nagging and since you're still living under the same roof as them, there's no excuse not to listen to them.

8. You really got to start thinking about your life. Your aims, and goals and START going for it. And you have to be realistic about it. No more childhood games/dreams.

9. All the last teenage music artist are foreign to me. The last teenage pop group that I used to (and still do) listen are the Backstreet Boys, Boyzone, Spicegirls, Take That, All for One, Boys to Men..

10. The artists I used to grow up to (Mickey Mouse Club, Christina Aguilera, Britney Spears, Jessica Alba) are all now married with Kids!!!

11. Shows like 90210 are being re-made to fit the 'Younger' crowd! haha

12. It was 4 years ago since I last studied for an exam. 10 years ago since I took my O's.

13. Ive come to an age where I start reminiscing about the past. And start singing "those were the days my friend..we thought they'll never end"..and you were younger, all you could think of was the future..now I find myself thinking of the past more. sigh..

14. People have started calling me Auntie! and that's not the worst part..I've begun accepting it! *HORROR*

15. During parties, especially CNY, aunties (kaypoh ones) keep asking when you're going to get married. And when you tell them that you're still finding the perfect man, theygive u the "hopeless" look, or the something-must-be-wrong-with-

you look.

16. My grandma keeps telling me (and I tell myself its becoz she's old and she forgot, she has told me this before) "when I was ur age, I was already a mother of 3"

17. I have to start watching my diet. My metabolism rate isn't as high as it was many years ago.

18. I have to start taking proper care of my skin. Use sunblock, moisturizer, blah blah..coz I don't want to look 40 when I'm in my 30s.

19. My bag now seems to have more 'rubbish'. Before all I needed was a simple wallet and my housekeys. Now I have housekeys, car keys, 3 wallets (one for name cards, one for credit cards, and one for cash), tissues, and other random redundant stuff.

20. R21 now means nothing to me (well it never did coz Singapore always censored things even AFTER rating it R21).

21. I'm one chapter away from death. The next chapter in life is marriage and then death. I've already begun my Career chapter.

23. I have started to understand the real importance of life insurance.

24. I have to start dressing my age. Can't dress too kiddish or else people will call me "try hard". hahaha...at least when you're younger, you can dress to be young or old..either way u could probably pass it off.

25. I tend to forget more. I was going to type something in here but I forgot what I wanted to say.

26. Whatever it is, the bottom line is I'm getting old. But life ain't that bad, there are good things from being 26!..haha

You'll Think of Me

"You'll Think Of Me"

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

A CUTE MSG from my BABY...

A cute Thank You msg sent by Baby Ryan (through Caroline of course)..

"thanks for the prezzie auntie Ner
where's my mummy's present
I sent my daddy to work on Monday to get the gift from you
last nite, I tasted all the pieces one by one
but I couldnt fit it into my mouth
but at least I made a lot of noise in my cot with it when my parents were sleeping"
- Baby Ryan Miguel Aliling

my Hot dates...

Sigh, I know its been a while since I last blog. Im slowly going back in that habit of not updating. hahaha...ah well..here's what's been happening.

Was thinking of going back to studying to do my Masters. Was looking at doing a Master of Science in Marketing at the Marketing Institute of Singapore. Talked to the 'rents about it and they're supportive of it but advised me to think about it carefully.
hmmm...so I'm still in the thinking stage.hahahaha..

So alot has been happening this week (after a few weeks of spending quiet time at home). Monday, I drove to work coz we were heading to Shirley's father's wake at West Coast. so knowing that they'l be a few of people coming along, I thought Id contribute my car. hahaha..Then on Tuesday, joined mum and dad at dinner with Aud and Merv. Dinner was rather interesting as I learnt that my aunty Carmen has pretty much left me with the decision of her life, estate and what nots after she dies. PRESSURE man!!! hahahaha

Tonight Im having dinner with the OCBC folks. We're heading to AMK hub.

Tommorow, plans aren't exactly firmed up yet. But Bernard wants me to accompany him to watch Underworld. Argh!! Of all movies...hahahaha

Friday, dinner cum supper (shaun calls it Din-Per and I call it Sup-Ner..hahaha) with the boys. In all the time Bernard has stayed in Tampines, he has not been to Simpang Bedok. Soo we're taking him there.

Sat, I have that talk from NTU about their Nanyang Business school. Then, if time permits rush down to OLPS for novena. Then come back, shower and change for the big BIG date with 4 boys. hahahaha...
Its a priviledge for these boys to be able to take me out I tell you. hahahaha...
Hmm...what should I wear?! Was asking Shaun earlier today and he said that these boys are just kids. hahaha
Anyways..we've concluded that it's either jeans with a normal top, my Victoria Secret tube dress, or jeans with a tube top (IL look like I'm going clubbing. hahaha...then should I wear flats or heels? hahaha...these boys (especially the Darling)...is soo bloody tall. hahahaha...hmm maybe IL just wear tshirt and fbt shorts. hahahaha...

Random Things about Me.

1.I love studying at night. Something about the coolness, calmness and the silence. I would be listening to music and trying to read and do my assignments. And sometimes on short breaks, I would be writing down the lyrics to the songs I love. I would listen and write the lyrics down as the song is being played. And by doing this, I learnt that it improves your English, improves your listening skills (especially taking down lyrics to a rap song) and that most of the lyrics to love songs are predictable.

2.The most I've written in a week was 5 essays each about 5000 words. And on top of that I had a Math quiz. I have never been burnt out like that before but it was sure an experience. The feeling of it being over was euphoric!

3.Studying for exams with Adeline was GREAT! We would bring out our mattress to the living room, turn that place into a big camping ground. We would fill the dinning table with books, test papers, assignments, our snacks, my COKE,her COFFEE, our table lights, laptops, pens, pencils, cups and other what nots. We would study till wee hours in the morning, then head to MacDonalds for breakfast and then do more studying. After that we would go to the library to sleep. hahahaha...I think during exam periods we were only getting about 1hr of sleep for about a week.I seriously think during Uni, I was really lacking of sleep. hahahaha..

4.I am scared of Lizards. REAAALLLY scared of Lizards.Like I would rather die than to be near a lizard. My senses really heightens when a lizard is near. I can see that one tiny thing move 500m away, although my eyesight may not be that perfect. hehehehe...Somehow or another they seem to be attracted to me. I remember back in Bedok Ria, we had a small toilet at the back of the house. I was young then so I remembered going to pee and half closing the door. When washing my hands, I felt something drop on me and in the mirror I saw the tail of the lizard. Immediately I RAMMED into the toilet door, almost ripping it off and screaming for my maid. The Lizard had falled off me but I could still feel it in me!!! I kept jumping up and down and was in tears. After calming me down, my maid found a big cut on my leg which I apparently didn't feel like all. I didn't care what happened to me as long as I was away from the Lizard. BTW this has happened TO DATE about 7 times. Lizards LOOOOOVEEEE me!!! AAAAHH.....

5.I truly love cooking. I remember how we used to cook for about 20+ people almost every weekend back in Sydney. But now that I'm back with mum being my cook, I rarely get a chance to cook unless they decide to go away for a holiday.hahahaha..

6. If I had siblings. I would want to have an elder brother and a younger sister. I always imagined that my older brother would protect me and be someone I could go to. And I would be a big Jie Jie to my yonger sister. Help her with her problems and do fun girly things with her. Oh well, that's never going to happen now is it? hahaha

7. I have to sleep with a bolster or with something to hug. I feel very insecure when I have nothing to hug. BUT it must always be either a bolster or pillow.

8. I used to have this tape collection of oldies. And my maid would play it to wake me up or put me to sleep. Songs on the tape include; "Lipstick on your collar, Golden threads and Silver needles, Dear John, Put your sweet lips, Don't cry Joni...etc." I was only about 5+ then. So yup..I was an oldies kid! hahahaha... The lyrics to these songs are ones I will NEVER forget.

9. I have a thing for butterflies although I'm abit scared of the real thing. hehehe...I'm just amazed at how something soo ugly (caterpillar) turn out to be something soo colourful and beautiful. I'm always amazed at metamorphism. I associate myself with that actually. I love change. Change is good even if its for the better or worst. You always learn something from it. Hence my tattoo of a butterfly. It represents Change.

10.Everyone seems to wonder why on earth I have a degree in Math when I can't even do simple sums. Actually even I can't answer that question. Honestly sometimes I look at my certificate and wonder the same thing.hahaha...but I can tell you why I love Math. I love math not soo much for its numbers but for the skills you get out of it. Like the logic and reasoning way of thinking. There are soo many ways to look at a problem. So its a challenge to find the simplest way to it.

11.When I was young I used to love lying on the floor and looking up at the ceiling imagining what life would be upside down. I could do that for hours. Just pretending that everything was upside down. I could also stare at the ceiling fan for hours imagining life on the blades of the fan.

12. I love horror shows but they always scare the shits out of me. But its the adrenaline pumping feeling that gets me all high. So if you're a fan of horror flicks, please be my friend. hahaha

13. My dream place to visit would be Lapland. Lapland is the Wild North of Finland. You get to see the Aurora Borealis (Northern Lights), reeinders - apparently its a city that still rears reeinders, hahaha...and it experiences really cold winter (-50C at its worst).I love the cold but don't know if I can take it or not. hahahaha...

14.I don't care much for chocolate or ice cream. I eat them but I don't crave for them like some people. If its there, IL eat, if it isn't, then no big deal.

15. I don't really like drinking coffee. I'm a Tea person. But I do love the smell of coffee. I actually even got a certificate in being a coffee connoisseur. You see, in Sydney, they take their coffee making very seriously. So since I was working at this coffee place, they sent me for a 2 day coffee training. You learn how to make the different types of coffee, the different types of beans,and how much milk to water..blah blah blah. My coffeeholic friends were extremely jealous. hahaha..The only coffee I probably drink is a Irish Creme Latte. But again, I'm a Tea person. I drink all sorts of tea. My favourite is the Earl Grey. I can sit at a cafe with a pot of Earl Grey and it'd just ease me troubles away.

16. I am a jeans,tshirt and slippers type of girl.

17. I love my slippers and do wish I could wear them everyday. I own 6 pairs of 'REAL' Havaianas. (pink, brown, silver, black, Australian Flag, white). It was until I went to Bugis that I realised they sold 'fake' Havaianas.

18. I don't care much for makeup. Only after much nagging from my mum, I've started to use the blusher and eyeliner. That's all. I would rather have the extra minutes sleeping..than wasting time using makeup! hahahaha...

In loving Memory...Goodbye January!!!

Wow! January has managed to whizz by without anyone's notice! I can't believe we're actually in the 2nd month of 2009 already. SHIT!
9 years ago, I was facing mama's death on one hand and my independence on the other. Where has the time really gone to? This year marks the 9th year anniversary of the girls. 9 years of the best friendship we all could ever have from going through relationships, to breakups, to pregnancies, to getting into medical school, to exams, to finding that perfect house, to having that first kiss, that first touch, to ermm...everything. hahahaha...my life today wouldn't be same if it wasn't for this bunch of girls. And to them I owe my life.
Although we're all over the world now, I'm sure those memories are carried in our hearts forever. Somehow I find myself asking if I regretted coming back home after those 5 years? I probably did not regret coming home, but it was sure hard to leave my 'home'- a place I built for myself. Hmm...what if I never did leave, how different would I be today? For starters, I don't know if IL still be with Mark. Although we settle for the excuse that it was the long distance that tore us apart, I'm sure there were other underlying issues.
But from that break up, I truly learnt the meaning of a heart ache (the kind where u literally feel as tho someone ripped out ur heart and tore it into a million pieces), truly learning the meaning of 'not knowing what you have till its gone', and learning the meaning of love. I'm sure that there are more things about love to learn but I definately learnt alot from Mark. And I hope he learnt alot from me too.
Sometimes IL find his emails and read them, and although some of them were angry emails, all I can get out from them now is love. How could I have felt so much love without knowing it then? I just knew that he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I still wish for that but it ain't going to happen. Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to feel love the same way I did with Mark and probably that's the truth. I will find love again and it will be different. Mark was Mark and this new guy (who ever he might be) will be the new guy.
Ahh...life! Whoever thought it'd be this hard. hahaha..I wish I could just be young and have carefree days.
I'm just reminiscing and can't believe how fast time flies. So much to learn with soo little time.Wait! back on the topic of love, sometimes I don't understand how people can jump from relationship to relationship. Are they really in love with that person or do they just need attention from the relationship? hmmm I wonder.